Do you know the feeling of “What-if?”
Your life is imperfectly perfect. You have lovely and the worlds coolest parents, a sister to die for, cousins who are more than family; you also have friends to help,guide,irritate you and get you all riled up and also make you happiest.. And then you have a boyfriend.. A love life, so unpredictable yet so beautiful..
You have your ups and downs. Bad memories and good ones.. All is well in your life except the sudden change of plans or situations that hurt you. All is well..
Yet one day while wrapping up your things for the day, in your office, suddenly you wonder “What if i lose everything? What if someone dies whom you care the most?”
And that my friends was me. I sat there overwhelmed with emotions. Every beautiful and ugly parts of my life started forming a picture in motion infront of my eyes.
The pictures in my dashboard spoke volumes and i felt unhappy.
“Baby are you okay?” He asked me as i hugged him for my dear life. Not able to hold my tears in place i had to rush out of my office to his studio and then to his embrace.
“I love you.” i told him repeatedly.
He kept comforting me; cuddled safely in his lap i sniffed again murmuring how much i loved him. He kept brushing my hair. Kissing my head .. Holding my hand and giving the utmost comfort.
“Tell me what happend baby?” he asked while i had finally calmed down. Not wanting to take my safely tucked head from his lap, i smiled.
“I dont know. I felt sad.. Unhappy and missed you so much! I dont know.. Everything so perfect.. Am always happy.. What if anything happened? What if someone i love died? How will i live? What if we separated? What if..”
Before i could rant further he laughed. He kissed me hard at my sad face and laughed some more.
“I love you.” he said
“I love you” i told him.
“Sometimes you just have to be unhappy to know the true worth of happiness. So my sweet baby, you can come to me anytime as long as i get to hug you, cuddle you and kiss you senseless..” he said.
I frowned ” so i can’t visit you if i don’t have to hug, kiss or cuddle you?”
He thought for a while and then said “will anything stop you from seing me? You always find your way!”
I told him i love you.